Saturday, December 31, 2005

2005!

2004 was better than 2005.
I managed malaria, was bedridden for over six months, had no job (almost lost the hope of getting one), and was strikingly boycotted by the whole known world. I was alone, helpless, unbeloved.
and it's 2004 I'm talking about. So you can guess how this freaking 2005 was for me.
Anyway, all I can do is to hope for a better year. 2006 should be an year of Sob Peyechhi for me. Nope, it must be!
Stay cool people. May 2006 keep you swinging.

Monday, December 19, 2005

Caution: Hazardously Boring Stuff!

I managed, somehow, to develop a freaking strong cold. The chilly morning wind through my verandah made me shiver, and I cursed everything for that heavy lump in my skull. This had gone too far, I decided.
The scrambled egg stared at the ceiling, untouched, and I rustled past the food to hurry up. Autorickshaws or Cabs for hire are as rare as virgins in a whorehouse in Mohammadpur if it's one darned minute past eight. Every single day I get late in office, and it's not a thing I would say I'm proud of.
But this was not my lucky day to start a new life. I found myself waiting on the Thana Road, waiting for a cabbie or ciengiero (I coined this term for the cng-driven autorickshaw drivers, they play a major role in my life) to drive by and have some mercy on me. Mahakhali, where my fucking office is, proved to be a Zone of Eternal Repulsion for them. It's sometimes very difficult for me to check myself, not to hurl upon these bastards. Promise them the moon, but they won't bat an eyelid before refusing to go to Mahakhali.
I waited for half an hour, with the emerging sun banging on my head, feeling really sick. And after some hasty jogs, a kind looking guy condescended to carry me, ofcourse demanding an extra 30%. Fine. All I wanted was to get to the office, punch my bloody card, have some tea and get my ass off to one of my projects.
Piercing through excruciatingly thick traffic jam, I reached my office, obviously 45 minutes late, and trod along heavily to my jampacked room. Everybody was talking, or laughing or just sitting there, but the whole world seemed too freaking noisy to me. I began sneezing and as usual it became soaked with blood after a couple of zealous shots. I cursed again. Damn this cold.
Wasting a solid hour in my office, I started to Kachpur. My brain was literally pulsating under my forehead, and my throat felt like sandpaper. I wished I could kick someone really hard in the balls and get back home. But instead I started the boring meeting that really could piss me off. Thanks to Mr. Hussain, he has a peculiar way of intriguing people in problems related to Electrical Engineering. But hey, I'm not saying that it made me feel better ... it just didn't deteriorate my coldie cold mood anymore.
The meeting was long and thorough, and I didn't feel like having lunch then and there, though the cook in that industry proved himself as an excellent one. I cried inside to lie down on my bed. My head was making me suffer. But it was a long day ahead, and I had to walk 2 km to get to the nearest bus stop.
I managed my panting breath when I got to the bus at last. And I stood all the way from Kachpur to gulistan on that rugged bus, trying to stiffle my cough and to ignore the dried up feeling inside my chest.
When I got back home, everything was glittering in front of my eyes. I feebly washed myself, hardly ate something and lied down on my bed. I could feel the fever shivering along my spines.
I slept for an hour or so ... and woke up with a deafening headache. I wasn't sure if I accidentally shoved something up my brain or not. And I don't remember how I managed to pass seven long hours before I sat down and started writing this blog.
I tried reading a bit ... perusing through our surprisingly promising stack of books in the library. Every name came bouncing in front of my eyes, and I tiredly retired ... this cold was killing me, really.
But colds and fevers are fidel in a sense. They are there, when you need someone to shift the blame on.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Hibijibi

Maajhe maajhe bhabi
tumi dur smriti theke aasha aulik Steamer
bhalo laaga aalo phelo amar nikosh kaalo buke
hothat aloy ami nijeke notun kore dekhi.

Friday, December 16, 2005

16th December

Aaj bhore ghum bhengechhe kamaaner gorjon shune. Abar ghume tolie jabar age bhablam, ami bijoyeeder ekjon.
Dupure abar ghum bhenge uthe baranday berie dekhi, amar charpashe ek ekta barir churay jhilmil kore jolchhe amader potaka. Aaj roder-o mon bhalo emon laal sobuj peye.
Bikele pothe berie dekhi lakho manusher michhil, ar laal sobujer dheu charidike. Manusher mukhe shonkito khushir hashi. Eto here jabar lojja aaj dheke diechhe potakar utsharito alo.
Ami shudhu nijer bhetore onuchcharito aashar hashi shuni. Amra emonta thakbo na, ei bangladesher manushguloer gorbito tripto hashi chhorie porbe prithibir prantor theke prantore.
Joy Bangla!

:)

Well, I had a filthy day yesterday.
It's nothing to tell of, my days are usually filthy. But it was full of some ironic events. Read on.
Event A
I managed to hunt down an autorickshaw and began galloping to my office. At the very first signal, the unusually "developped" lady in the car to my left caught my eyes. O, developped she was :D! I guess I was ogling her too much, and women have a good sixth sense about being watched. So she took a folder and as if to shield herself from the sun, covered her developments from my drooling eyes :$. And what I saw written on that folder?
Rashtrio Guruttopurno Kaaje Beboharjo.
(To be used in Important Functions of the State)
I almost laughed my ass off :D.
Event B
My driver in office, Mr. Y is one heck of a daredevil. He drives like a madman, and often wastes hours to "educate" less enlightened drivers. I have dissuaded him to go and knock down truckers quite a few times. He has got a peculiar habit of snaking through the traffic at 120 kmph ... and I don't enjoy it much often. Anyway, yesterday he wriggled out between two loaded trucks at 140, and I swallowed it hard. Just at that very moment, I saw a poster glued to the bus in front of us. It was about an audio release of some wannabe vocalist. Guess the caption. You can't?
More Jabo Priyaa!
(I'll kick the bucket, baby!)
Event C
Elections are always going on in Dhaka. Hundreds of Committees and thousands of Candidates are lurking around, with their mugs and logos printed on posters all around. And the last printed prank I saw yesterday ...
Chika bhaike Moyur Markay Vote din.
(Vote Brother Mole, represented by Peacock)
I almost bit my hands off, why the fuck don't I have a digital camera :'(?

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Marquez Marquez

Ki achhe Marquez-er lekhay? Kibhabe amar onubhutir raash onayashe taar muthoy chole jaay?
Ami nijeke e proshno korar obokaash-o paai na Marquez-er lekha porar somoy. Taar bishaal taana jhoro lekha phurie jaabar por-i ekta oboshaader sathe proshnogulo amar bhetore chhorie pore, narisongsorger por jemonta hoy ... Marquezer lekhake tulona kora jete pare kono unmotto romoni-shorirer sathei.
Kemon ekta nirosh --- kokhono kokhono korkosh --- nirliptota die shuru koren Marquez. Pathokke ektu somoy dite hoy taar lekhake, ektu ektu korei taar shukno morokta khule chharie nite hoy, aar ekbar taar lekhake unmochito korar por thamar ichhe jaage na. Kibhabe Marquez eker por ek tene nie ashen shei odbhut bhalobashake, kibhabe moner bhetore gie gole mishe jaay tara, protiti bakke notun notun mor phute othe onabishkrito shorirer ba[n]ker moto ... Marquez amar shorirke moner sathe jaagie tolen.
One Hundred Years of Solitude ami porechhi amar nijer eksho bochhorer nishshongotar somoye, amar ekhono mone pore ami ki ek khepar moto raat jege shob kichhu chherechhure saraghore he[n]te boshe shue shesh korechhi take, ekbar shei lekhake nogno kore phelar por ... e ki shudhu ek thanda biplobi Aureliano Buendias-er khamoka juddher bornona? Ek ekbar mor nie shei golpe kromosh ghono hoyechhe bhalobashar kotha, ki tibro othocho ki mosrin ar norom taar bichchhuron ... 32ta juddhe here jaawa Buendiaske tar bongshodhorera naame baa[n]chie rakhte chay, eker por ek putro chhorie pore Aureliano naam nie ... jokhon onek durer bongshodhor Aureliano taar sontaaner naam rakhte chaay Aureliano, shudhu ekta sopno nie je she ekdin 32ta juddho jitbe ... ami poshur moro chitkar kore ke[n]de uthechhilam nijer here jawa juddhogulor kotha mone kore ... abar shei eki Marquez jokhon Of Love and Other Demons e lekhen ek balikar jonne ek jajoker oshohay bhalobashar golpo ... je bhalobasha kono chehara nite na pere shudhu osohay kore tole sobaike ... jokhon Marquez Autumn of the Patriarch-e bolen kono ek shoiracharir golpo, jaake nogorbashi khu[n]je paay dhongshostupe, kintu chinte pare na ... e karone noy je taar mukh shokune khuble kheyechhe, shudhu she karone je taara kokhonoi loktake chine uthte paareni ... Love in the Time of Cholerate ek prouro atmohotta kore she briddho hote chay na bole, ar tar kukurta payer ba[n]dhon dhile kore rakhar por-o paalie jaay na teto almonder gondhomakha gold cyanide-er kobol theke ... ami jaani na ki ek bhalobashar dheu graash kore amake ... ami thakbo na, Marquez amar moto osonkho binashproboner shorir theke shorire ei bhalobashar dheue chore be[n]che thakben. Marquez, mortatori te salutant.

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Kho[n]ra mon Marathon lore jaay,
Heshe khun phul-pata jhore jaay,
sobbai duo duo kore jaay,
thandaar gaan gaay maagh maash

Kho[n]ra mon ekdin seemanay
pouchhu[n]be ... eta bolo ki manay
jochhonara shue shue bichhanay
koshe aa[n]te a[n]dharer naagpaash.

Kho[n]ra mon poroa to kore na
Marathon theke beta shore na
Path baare, kichhutei more na ...
ghutghute andhar ratri

Rod jodi kono ek sokale
chumo khay kho[n]ratar kopale ...
... laabh nei jot be[n]dhe thokale
Kho[n]ra mon por khawa jaatri.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Blank

Aamar khub mon kharap. Aamar mon kharap karon ami ekhon bhir bhoy pai. Aamar mon kharap karon ami aar pothe cholte gie bhirer moddhe harie jete sahosh pai na. Aamar mon kharap karon ami hothat bujhe gechhi ami kotota ba[n]tchte chai. Aamar mon kharap karon ek ekta okaron mrittu aamake chhoto kore rakhe. Aamar mon kharap karon ami buker bhetor nijer durbolotar ghurni ter paai. Aamar mon kharap karon ami porichitojoner mritomukh kolpona kore shiure shiure uthi. Aamar khub khub mon kharap karon ami ei halka kuasha ei koyek potch megh ei roder fali fali tukro ei norom norom sundore bhora deshta chhere jete chai na ... ami ekhane ektu betche thakte chai!

Sunday, December 04, 2005

:((

I used to to go out with my bhaiya when I was a kid. He sat me on his bike, rode along the beautiful hilly alleys of Sylhet ... or we used to go for a walk ... and the world was ruled by Krishnachura-s then. With chilly touch of moisture in the air, our every step was met by fallen petals, the streets were covered by Red. Grabbing my bhaiyas fingers, I used to look up and smile. I learned to love Krishnachura. I learned to love Red.
And here I am, grown up, learned to walk alone ... and look what I am walking through. The streets are now covered by blood, of my own people, everywhere I look. The chills in the air scare me, the moisture reminds me of tears, and I kneel before any God you put before me, I embrace his or her knees, stop this bloodshed, let me love the Red again.